This may be a long post or perhaps I will break it up but I intend to talk about 3 very vital beliefs I have of my own life, useful and sensible and yet? Perhaps ironic as they are all virtual or superimposed realities. One is the cognizance of 2 very dominate personalities in one body, second deals with the necessity of despair in keeping the outer man from driving me insane, finally how to disengage and detach from anger and annoyance by fully embracing passionately holding it experiencing the gifts of it then.. allowing yourself to consume the energy lest in reverse you are the one consumed.
All 3 beliefs are cognizant meaning they are ideals which are proved to be observable by my own empirical experiences, in a nut shell it goes beyond simply stating well it works for me they stinking saved my life and continue to do so. Can it be I have created a religion? Well if I were the master and you were my student I suppose before I let you eat or sleep we would likely breech these 3 as new lights on an old pile of chit. Hoping of course you don’t argue for it is as real as any religious beliefs.
The 2 persons I find little argument in religion about. Many will cop to the idea we have a spiritual nature that we have an inner voice or some will say higher self.. I just say I am in essence.. a worm
Okay that may be abrupt but it was like a worm and we all were shot from a penis rushed thru a party of 2 million others and it was only I who took the egg. Coincidence? Math? No I say I may have had a choice and it was the will of this little guy who said yes I shall live.. I give him full respect and I say he is responsible for the start of the game as we say that the father started the cosmic game. In reflection therefore? It’s the worm who will be responsible for loosing the game if ever he chooses that it no longer suits him.
This one threat I suppose is why the other components of my soul all seem to respect me, in a patronizing way the biggest element is my own brain who thinks he is so smart he calls himself the mind. He may be. In a very rudimentary form all that can be expected of a mind but honey he is the most annoying son of a.. hmm well we don’t always get along.
But I cant so sort my life out to where he is in control and I am not therefore responsible no that is where this theory would drop into the realm of a psychosis if I drink and black out? Ah.. no I say I am still going to have to pay no getting out of it.
Respect is where I know I can commit to do what I say I can do and not fail.
If I can respect my own abilities I can respect my commitment. This is the essence of respect. Self respect. I think that where we go wrong is to imply that failing to honor in actions and attitudes reveals a belief that you are not thinking my word is genuine. But to state you have no respect means in my book you don’t respect yourself not that you cant honor another. Human ideals so dynamic they make up the rules as they go very frustrating I say have them look it up.. I did.
Okay well, there are 2 people different natures both think they are true real and valid and they ah.. well fight. And I will talk quite a bit about this later. But to simplify I am Jerry the core of power in my soul invisible… Jerald or Lord Jerald is well, ah lets just leave it there. He is responsible for well all that really can be seen in well what you see of me. Nice thing is he doesn’t talk much. Bad thing is that if he does have chit to say? Ah well a picture is worth a thousand words he does get his point across. So it behooves me to placate.
Placation is an art, a skill takes thought and can lead to disappointment if you are in a rush. In short Jerald can be sold. Very impulsive easily takes in anyone willing to amuse him and you know I will argue against the logic of making your decisions based on cartoons? Well he is just this way.
He will believe anything.. it gets to be so bad I don’t even want to discuss anything to do with belief.. and yet? Ah he has saved my life so many times I feel well like it was a monster who was kind to me and now has decided to move in and run my life.. ah. It can be a real b*tch!
Self talk can be a real key to dealing with the real man. And this cant go on vacation if he says he is worried sing a silly don’t worry be happy tune. Counter him or he will obsess! On anything he will obsess. Idol hands are the devils tools this is key sage wisdom, keep him busy but! Don’t try to hold the truth from him. Don’t play a game of well if you do this then.. good or bad it will bit you in the butt!
Jerald needs to keep things huge or he will forget. And ah well I don’t always want to keep him amped up thinking huge it gets carried away so? We both forget. Write it down for god sake don’t argue make a rule that if its not written it wont be done right. Don’t make silly excuses. It is far easier to manage him and your own laziness if you simply give each other the permit to forget after you scheduled it and you wont be so stressed out either. Does this guarantee any degree of success? I cant say yes however if you don’t see the wisdom of planning your steps you are not taking any responsibility in training your real man or brain so how can you appreciate the rewards when they are presented? Accountability, 100% accountability is not only a law of heaven it is deep magic of Gaia. If you want to be happy with your reward you will have to chalk up the idea you did plant this seed. But timing really isn’t in my hands it has to be accepted if there are rules (and there are) then there had to be someone to write the rules and honey it aint you.
We aspire thru dreams desires and a thirst for passion, conversely we commit to the restraint of selfishness thru the concern of self preservation. Might be fun to go sky diving without a parachute but? Ah most monkeys will catch on long before what if… and ah the idea of the splat comes in and it’s a no brainer we just wont do it unless this fear of detriment is fully covered. Well for the majority.
Jerald as I said would by ice in a snow storm if led astray or if the seller is cute. Easily persuaded and it is.. well funny.. but then again impulse buying well he just doesn’t see we needed that money or we needed to be elsewhere… hmm so? I have to block him if I can.. screaming aloud don’t you see you are killing me?
Ah well that usually gets his attention but? Ah he doesn’t always let go of that ice idea as valid. See what I am up against?
Themes along this line of how I have found ways to conjure new beliefs which he will hold to.. for a while may be a larger part of this Blog. Alas it comes down to the same math I will claim I am more sensible and balance the needs of all my soul in relation to what life is telling me for today? He will counter that he is more reasonable and he too is balancing but? On the idea that the world socialization self-image is as valid a concern as my argument and ah.. I suppose he is correct. How can I tell him that my ideas is more valid? I cant.
So I cheat.
Ouch.. yes I cheat because I know he cant see the supernatural. He can imagine he does he can take my descriptions and make cartoons but he just cant. Not that he wont its not a choice he is flesh with eye sockets not an invisible being like me so? I ah.. fib. I take the idea of hope and turn it around. Selling him a grand story he sits and listens intently and then the moral of it is… and by this time I have him pegged. I use despair which is the reverse of hope. I try to get him to imagine how better an image he has for not going to buy ice… or not getting caught buying ice… and ah. He just lets it lay. For a day.. I have to remind him I swear on the angels he will bring it up every morning unless I have him busy..
The line as I was calling it earlier the line of despair is.. logically illogical there is no true line but it really works.. my life? Is like a bubble inside a realm I just call today the world I am in the world not of the world but the bubble I have is well the world I permit inside the bubble but in all fact no its just the parts of the world I have succeeded in keeping Jerald from venturing out in because if there is any belief he likes in my stories he sure identifies with “curious George”.
The line is mobile not so fixed not so defined as a strait line. And it will ease up in company I can trust to cover for me if Jerald gets too like a curious George and I find my foot in my mouth. But essentially I do try to keep a hold on him this self restraint is not something so easily achieved in fact I will go on to say it isn’t natural. Self restraint is white knuckles.. but? There is promise.. self control is one of the spiritual fruits. And yeah I have found that in a real battle.. it gets easier..
Keep him busy with spirituality? He wont screw up in fact he is the essential healer he heals me and doesn’t even see when he does it.
Are you lost? Spirituality is not the same as the supernatural in my story. And I will tell you more of that in a while.
True Anger is a green energy where as true madness is an energy refined by Heaven. So? There are 2 big influences and rather than getting into arguments with theologians lets just call them by their magical colors silver is glory and green is nature.
Mother Nature in my story is not gentle she is a get’er’done kind of woman when she sees her planet in danger she is more likely to ignore that there are monkeys getting hurt in her fix or allowing a new volcano or earthquake to let of steam this is her way.
Anger is the energy we draw upon in our fight and flight response to a threat and it is the most natural animalistic thing we share with all beings where there is a deadly force we so call upon the webs of life and hold on? Its like biting into an electrical cord we will get the energy and as a result of anger the first thing to go? Is the minds ability to calmly and rationally make a balance between consequences which in my book are stupid to even worry on in the first place. Alas it is usually seen as out of control or a crime of passion.
Anger therefore is where the brain is? Ah well blanked out. This implies tons of things. The brain is the place sensitive to pain he worries over pain and will try to protect us using reason instead of logic. But? Now he cant he wont want food or sleep he will have asked us take over because? Well the power as I said is rushing thru us from me to all of my bodily environment and he may seem stupid at times but he isn’t ignorant. We don’t mess with spiritual powers in the flesh.
Madness is both positive and negative and we will discuss this more in depth. But it is the reverse polarity of Anger. Here is where the might of heaven descends physically on the brain or real man to the extent that its not only me who is in a fit of hell no it is my other components in my soul.. the heart especially and the inner spirit who suffers. And the result of this imbalance even for a small break is that we have broke off with reality this trauma can lead to psychosis, anxiety disorder even longer range to suicide and drug abuse. (been there done that!)
The bitterness of understanding that where the brain or the will is neglected in any venture be it ill and threatening or aspiring to new heights if its not a team effort the only reward we will see in the eternal perspective will be loss and grief. There has to be a hold from both and its unwise to tamper with madness or anger these powers are for gods not mortals… so lets say not yet.
The key to fixing this is not the same way where I try to foil him using despair. In despair the idea is don’t go there no with anger and madness we embrace it and attempt to find any tiny thing we can believe have already beloved and have trust full trust in the idea that yes we were warned and prepared therefore? There are others higher up who are in control.
This take on trauma is not so easy to pack into a simple pill and sell, no it takes the kind of cognizance which counselors seem to have gotten behind upon. You must learn to see that if hind sight is 20/20 we cant just then take it for granted wake up and smell the DOGBLAM coffee. And get on with your life, don’t just sit in the effects of trauma see there is good in every evil and that in truth there will be evil. As in evil there will be truth and for every good pure truth there is evil implied all 4 ideals must be explored and this may take an older wiser monkey to help you get off the pot or shit. Unfortunately? The shit may take your life. I say let it ride you don’t have to obsessively attempt to win that war just let it lay there. Grow beyond.
So there will be trauma. And if you are a monkey you will get hurt its par for the course. But we heal.
The effect is not the point of the game.. ah.. so perhaps we are blind to the game and focus only on the pain? Yeah!
So look back who else was involved was there any message if there was no hurt was there a message? There always is a message we just overlook it.
Look back was there a warning usually there are 3 major warnings before a catastrophe and if you can see it.. honey you may have suffered but you are getting faith! Holy crap. You were warned? In a dream? Some coincidental conversation you overheard? A bill board or even a fortune cookie.. don’t close your eyes off. We see into the supernatural you could have prevented it..
2nd key is a fun one it is profound and obnoxious.. just ask yourself are you dead yet? Always makes me laugh.. nope they aint got me yet…
HELLNO and until that day… (I have tears) until the day I give in.. for it was me who said I shall live.. until that day baby I say.
Live it up!
LJW 11June07
All 3 beliefs are cognizant meaning they are ideals which are proved to be observable by my own empirical experiences, in a nut shell it goes beyond simply stating well it works for me they stinking saved my life and continue to do so. Can it be I have created a religion? Well if I were the master and you were my student I suppose before I let you eat or sleep we would likely breech these 3 as new lights on an old pile of chit. Hoping of course you don’t argue for it is as real as any religious beliefs.
The 2 persons I find little argument in religion about. Many will cop to the idea we have a spiritual nature that we have an inner voice or some will say higher self.. I just say I am in essence.. a worm
Okay that may be abrupt but it was like a worm and we all were shot from a penis rushed thru a party of 2 million others and it was only I who took the egg. Coincidence? Math? No I say I may have had a choice and it was the will of this little guy who said yes I shall live.. I give him full respect and I say he is responsible for the start of the game as we say that the father started the cosmic game. In reflection therefore? It’s the worm who will be responsible for loosing the game if ever he chooses that it no longer suits him.
This one threat I suppose is why the other components of my soul all seem to respect me, in a patronizing way the biggest element is my own brain who thinks he is so smart he calls himself the mind. He may be. In a very rudimentary form all that can be expected of a mind but honey he is the most annoying son of a.. hmm well we don’t always get along.
But I cant so sort my life out to where he is in control and I am not therefore responsible no that is where this theory would drop into the realm of a psychosis if I drink and black out? Ah.. no I say I am still going to have to pay no getting out of it.
Respect is where I know I can commit to do what I say I can do and not fail.
If I can respect my own abilities I can respect my commitment. This is the essence of respect. Self respect. I think that where we go wrong is to imply that failing to honor in actions and attitudes reveals a belief that you are not thinking my word is genuine. But to state you have no respect means in my book you don’t respect yourself not that you cant honor another. Human ideals so dynamic they make up the rules as they go very frustrating I say have them look it up.. I did.
Okay well, there are 2 people different natures both think they are true real and valid and they ah.. well fight. And I will talk quite a bit about this later. But to simplify I am Jerry the core of power in my soul invisible… Jerald or Lord Jerald is well, ah lets just leave it there. He is responsible for well all that really can be seen in well what you see of me. Nice thing is he doesn’t talk much. Bad thing is that if he does have chit to say? Ah well a picture is worth a thousand words he does get his point across. So it behooves me to placate.
Placation is an art, a skill takes thought and can lead to disappointment if you are in a rush. In short Jerald can be sold. Very impulsive easily takes in anyone willing to amuse him and you know I will argue against the logic of making your decisions based on cartoons? Well he is just this way.
He will believe anything.. it gets to be so bad I don’t even want to discuss anything to do with belief.. and yet? Ah he has saved my life so many times I feel well like it was a monster who was kind to me and now has decided to move in and run my life.. ah. It can be a real b*tch!
Self talk can be a real key to dealing with the real man. And this cant go on vacation if he says he is worried sing a silly don’t worry be happy tune. Counter him or he will obsess! On anything he will obsess. Idol hands are the devils tools this is key sage wisdom, keep him busy but! Don’t try to hold the truth from him. Don’t play a game of well if you do this then.. good or bad it will bit you in the butt!
Jerald needs to keep things huge or he will forget. And ah well I don’t always want to keep him amped up thinking huge it gets carried away so? We both forget. Write it down for god sake don’t argue make a rule that if its not written it wont be done right. Don’t make silly excuses. It is far easier to manage him and your own laziness if you simply give each other the permit to forget after you scheduled it and you wont be so stressed out either. Does this guarantee any degree of success? I cant say yes however if you don’t see the wisdom of planning your steps you are not taking any responsibility in training your real man or brain so how can you appreciate the rewards when they are presented? Accountability, 100% accountability is not only a law of heaven it is deep magic of Gaia. If you want to be happy with your reward you will have to chalk up the idea you did plant this seed. But timing really isn’t in my hands it has to be accepted if there are rules (and there are) then there had to be someone to write the rules and honey it aint you.
We aspire thru dreams desires and a thirst for passion, conversely we commit to the restraint of selfishness thru the concern of self preservation. Might be fun to go sky diving without a parachute but? Ah most monkeys will catch on long before what if… and ah the idea of the splat comes in and it’s a no brainer we just wont do it unless this fear of detriment is fully covered. Well for the majority.
Jerald as I said would by ice in a snow storm if led astray or if the seller is cute. Easily persuaded and it is.. well funny.. but then again impulse buying well he just doesn’t see we needed that money or we needed to be elsewhere… hmm so? I have to block him if I can.. screaming aloud don’t you see you are killing me?
Ah well that usually gets his attention but? Ah he doesn’t always let go of that ice idea as valid. See what I am up against?
Themes along this line of how I have found ways to conjure new beliefs which he will hold to.. for a while may be a larger part of this Blog. Alas it comes down to the same math I will claim I am more sensible and balance the needs of all my soul in relation to what life is telling me for today? He will counter that he is more reasonable and he too is balancing but? On the idea that the world socialization self-image is as valid a concern as my argument and ah.. I suppose he is correct. How can I tell him that my ideas is more valid? I cant.
So I cheat.
Ouch.. yes I cheat because I know he cant see the supernatural. He can imagine he does he can take my descriptions and make cartoons but he just cant. Not that he wont its not a choice he is flesh with eye sockets not an invisible being like me so? I ah.. fib. I take the idea of hope and turn it around. Selling him a grand story he sits and listens intently and then the moral of it is… and by this time I have him pegged. I use despair which is the reverse of hope. I try to get him to imagine how better an image he has for not going to buy ice… or not getting caught buying ice… and ah. He just lets it lay. For a day.. I have to remind him I swear on the angels he will bring it up every morning unless I have him busy..
The line as I was calling it earlier the line of despair is.. logically illogical there is no true line but it really works.. my life? Is like a bubble inside a realm I just call today the world I am in the world not of the world but the bubble I have is well the world I permit inside the bubble but in all fact no its just the parts of the world I have succeeded in keeping Jerald from venturing out in because if there is any belief he likes in my stories he sure identifies with “curious George”.
The line is mobile not so fixed not so defined as a strait line. And it will ease up in company I can trust to cover for me if Jerald gets too like a curious George and I find my foot in my mouth. But essentially I do try to keep a hold on him this self restraint is not something so easily achieved in fact I will go on to say it isn’t natural. Self restraint is white knuckles.. but? There is promise.. self control is one of the spiritual fruits. And yeah I have found that in a real battle.. it gets easier..
Keep him busy with spirituality? He wont screw up in fact he is the essential healer he heals me and doesn’t even see when he does it.
Are you lost? Spirituality is not the same as the supernatural in my story. And I will tell you more of that in a while.
True Anger is a green energy where as true madness is an energy refined by Heaven. So? There are 2 big influences and rather than getting into arguments with theologians lets just call them by their magical colors silver is glory and green is nature.
Mother Nature in my story is not gentle she is a get’er’done kind of woman when she sees her planet in danger she is more likely to ignore that there are monkeys getting hurt in her fix or allowing a new volcano or earthquake to let of steam this is her way.
Anger is the energy we draw upon in our fight and flight response to a threat and it is the most natural animalistic thing we share with all beings where there is a deadly force we so call upon the webs of life and hold on? Its like biting into an electrical cord we will get the energy and as a result of anger the first thing to go? Is the minds ability to calmly and rationally make a balance between consequences which in my book are stupid to even worry on in the first place. Alas it is usually seen as out of control or a crime of passion.
Anger therefore is where the brain is? Ah well blanked out. This implies tons of things. The brain is the place sensitive to pain he worries over pain and will try to protect us using reason instead of logic. But? Now he cant he wont want food or sleep he will have asked us take over because? Well the power as I said is rushing thru us from me to all of my bodily environment and he may seem stupid at times but he isn’t ignorant. We don’t mess with spiritual powers in the flesh.
Madness is both positive and negative and we will discuss this more in depth. But it is the reverse polarity of Anger. Here is where the might of heaven descends physically on the brain or real man to the extent that its not only me who is in a fit of hell no it is my other components in my soul.. the heart especially and the inner spirit who suffers. And the result of this imbalance even for a small break is that we have broke off with reality this trauma can lead to psychosis, anxiety disorder even longer range to suicide and drug abuse. (been there done that!)
The bitterness of understanding that where the brain or the will is neglected in any venture be it ill and threatening or aspiring to new heights if its not a team effort the only reward we will see in the eternal perspective will be loss and grief. There has to be a hold from both and its unwise to tamper with madness or anger these powers are for gods not mortals… so lets say not yet.
The key to fixing this is not the same way where I try to foil him using despair. In despair the idea is don’t go there no with anger and madness we embrace it and attempt to find any tiny thing we can believe have already beloved and have trust full trust in the idea that yes we were warned and prepared therefore? There are others higher up who are in control.
This take on trauma is not so easy to pack into a simple pill and sell, no it takes the kind of cognizance which counselors seem to have gotten behind upon. You must learn to see that if hind sight is 20/20 we cant just then take it for granted wake up and smell the DOGBLAM coffee. And get on with your life, don’t just sit in the effects of trauma see there is good in every evil and that in truth there will be evil. As in evil there will be truth and for every good pure truth there is evil implied all 4 ideals must be explored and this may take an older wiser monkey to help you get off the pot or shit. Unfortunately? The shit may take your life. I say let it ride you don’t have to obsessively attempt to win that war just let it lay there. Grow beyond.
So there will be trauma. And if you are a monkey you will get hurt its par for the course. But we heal.
The effect is not the point of the game.. ah.. so perhaps we are blind to the game and focus only on the pain? Yeah!
So look back who else was involved was there any message if there was no hurt was there a message? There always is a message we just overlook it.
Look back was there a warning usually there are 3 major warnings before a catastrophe and if you can see it.. honey you may have suffered but you are getting faith! Holy crap. You were warned? In a dream? Some coincidental conversation you overheard? A bill board or even a fortune cookie.. don’t close your eyes off. We see into the supernatural you could have prevented it..
2nd key is a fun one it is profound and obnoxious.. just ask yourself are you dead yet? Always makes me laugh.. nope they aint got me yet…
HELLNO and until that day… (I have tears) until the day I give in.. for it was me who said I shall live.. until that day baby I say.
Live it up!
LJW 11June07
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Thanks for writing this.
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