Mostly thinking about where to put my thoughts.

 Shelving our thoughts. Actually it is something I plan to do. I want to do it I anticipate the need. If nobody reads my stuff its okay. I wrote it, I want to reread it again. Its important to me for all sorts of reasons.

Why this is brought up is Facebook

I take a lot of time, sometimes, in writing about and sharing things that I feel are very important to me. Inspirational things, god spoke to me + earth shattering or quiet shuddering things. And I get no likes.

I mean who cares if they like it, I question do they even read it?

Facebook by default now displays the posts they feel are top stories.

means that if nobody has commented on my post they likely wont show it at all on everyone's wall.

In effect then, the universe as interpreted by Facebook, is saying to me that my posts are a waste of time.

That makes me worse than sad. It reflects not on what I do but who I am. Nobody loves me?

That cannot be the truth

But facebook by popularity declares who you are - by what you do not do.

    Okay, for example, so you swing and you miss the ball the crowd with their cat calls will declare now you are Gay, you are a Pig, you must be a BASTARD… 

Failure = Coward

Who you are = what you failed to do. 

By what you failed in their mind to be expected of you?

I like to write. Its what I do and more than this my writing defines who I am and what I discover about myself. But Facebook is all about popularity. I say screw face book. I will find another place to put my material.

New Math

New Math

Where Kilo does not equal ten

(some nerd must have thought that one up).

Well okay you go to Speedtest.net and get great numbers (we hope)

but are you paying attention to the letters after your huge numbers?

When I am hooked into my VPN and check with Speedtest.net I normally get about 8Mb up and around 12Mb down

Now here is where I scratch my chin:

a Mb is not a MB

1 Gigabyte is actually 1024 MB (big B).

1MB is actually 8Mb (Small B)

so interpret that to what you see in your torrent client you see you are getting upload speeds of hopefully 3MB, and upload speeds of around .8MB

one MB is 8 Mb

so .8MB is 6.4Mb that is about half of what speed test said I could get.

a 3MB download which would rock is actually 3 x 8 again or 27Mb

as I generally only see around 12Mb down that means 12/8 or 1.5MB is the best upload speed I generally will see.

Now that being said. how long will it take me to get one GB uploaded so I can start seeing a better ratio? a pretty long time at these speeds (put plug here for seed boxes)

.8MB up on my torrent per second is 288MB an hour, to get me one Gig would take me 3.555 hours.

but, my poor computer really doesn’t get that good of speed all the time and I loose peers because their clients go with faster seed boxes. truth be told use your bonuses. My little 4GB ram computer can handle 40 seeding torrents at a time and I get about one 250 point bonus every other day.

I hope this helps someone. took me some research to figure all this out myself.

If my numbers are messed up and you are a geek or nerd or whatever and can post a rebottle I hold no grudge I am just an old fart myself trying to keep up with all you kids. ha and its always nice to watch good movies for free.

Stupid X%%# Alergies

I hate this. I think I have allergies.

Now I smoked for years. As in about 36 years.

you would think that my smoking thru those years would have triggered some reaction.

However, now as an ex-smoker I am intolerant of smoke, I smell stuff much more acutely and I think that might be the crux. 

   And, I now have allergies

   My mother had allergies. I seen her go nuts a few times (not manic) but very sick.

    Today I woke crying (no I am not depressed). My right eye felt like there was glass in it. OH holy poo! It hurt like the hummer! Saline drops stung - that didn't help. I as well had a very runny nose and of course the eyes watering. so I called into the doc and talked to 3 nurses. They said, to my dismay, I ought to start taking antihistamines; as it was I had 3 different kinds of antihistamines.

   It still took 10 hours... to go from crazy in pain (a ten) - down to a low two. My eye is dry and I am annoyed, took a lot of get up and go energy away. but I am okay.

  Stupid allergies!