About journaling / logging / Blogging or what is it we do here? To make report to help define and get out the ambitions and dreams and hopes we have? To publish.. our dirty underwear. There is a truth not that I have a good grasp on it but I feel it that when we are sick its due to secrets. And sick can be many things to different people one sick I feel is that I don’t get lots done that by the end of the week. Hell, by the end of the day or even the end of the shift we ask ourselves well, how did you do? What is the answer.. Fine.
Oh I am fine we say.. I say you are sick for stating such a weasel of a statement and it is a fact that one slogan of recovery states FINE means Fucked up insecure Neurotic and emotional so? How to combat the sick of being fine? Write it down.
Zig Ziggler stated that if it was never written down and documented then it was never done. I don’t know if this is so but many businesses have this statement on their wall in plain view they want documentation. So? I tried it. Just a tiny 3 by 5 note pad spiral bound found them for only 25 cents fill one page up with a list of things I am planning to achieve in the next day. Or next shift or next few hours here is my list for today I wrote when I got up with my coffee:
Verify Julianna will come
Ask $10 from Julie – loan
Listen to tape book – clan of the cave bear
Clean up for Cindy visit – dishes, make bed straiten
Study new phone
Study about journalizing
Work my start page
Brainstorm new domain: MaryLucille.info
Study new Wiki
Arrange photo album offline then upload to online
Blog
10:40 Julie
11am Doc
1pm Cindy
Mail letter to Wulf
So brainstorm my list is what I did, 16 items I wrote with coffee about 7am its 8:55 and already I have 4 ½ done. Am I fine? Nope, I am remarkably terrific and I have documentation that I thought, planned, listed, made action and achieved my tiny aims. Is this the same as a goal? Well, it can be the little toe of a goal I suppose. That is a topic I need to consider deeper what I am here to do today is to discuss the importance and meaning of journalizing. What is it what isn’t it?
Well I cant say there is a wrong way to do it but there is a meaningful structure to what it really represents and the above example is primarily the essence of all that Journalism should become for anyone. That we do think and we must air what we think. We are only as sick as our secrets if its only a thought then there is no shred of evidence that it can be will be may be or is permitted to become an action but in the mere instance that a thought becomes verbiage becomes a written or spoken work it is no longer a secret and there was an action taken though it is the smallest of the strokes it may be only a dream and yet are not great cities built by what once was only a dream? And how great a forest fire is set ablaze by a tiny spark?
So to begin a log. A log is just the dust of the structure of an achievable goal and the one key point I personally feel is that the expression of our dream must never be so cheaply presented. This is a point I try to get my friends and family to understand when they send me email which in all effort stinks as if they sent me a bag of shit. They forward jokes which are not funny the only thing that has motive is that at the end of this joke it states if you send this off to 6 people in 6 seconds you get a wish if you don’t you will die in blood in your sleep and I get very angry.
My father loves redirect and loves slogans and ideas to make men think, one thing he told me way back in grammar school was that if a man cant speak in a way that others can receive what he means its as if he didn’t speak at all. This being so, why do I get angry if what you say stinks? I suppose I should ignore you but I just.. I wont. I cant ignore it for I hope to find out that you live that you are well and that you are speaking words of life to me and telling me things that matter. Who knows? Perhaps you feel that telling me that I am to die in a pool of blood in my sleep is all you matter for? Nope.
So? Speech in itself has to be presentable that every word be specific and geared to the correct meaning. I enjoy the word vulgarity for it defines why we don’t use euphemisms like Fuck or Damn unless it truly emphasizes the full meaning of what the message was meant to do. If words like Fuck upsets you don’t feel all alone it disturbs me as well but one euphemism that I use and love the most is Fuck you if used right really wakes up the person who isn’t quite taking what I say as seriously and perhaps the moral of the story has a bit to do with my cutting ties with you if you think what I have to say as cheap.
I don’t use such harsh words a lot. And yet I listen for others if they use it and mean it? And most really do they wont use FU cheaply for they know “them’s fighting words” that what they have to say reflects who they are for it is truly what they believe and if we cant accept them for what is presented – fuck you! I totally love this but? I find that for the 40% who accept this ideal there will be 6 Christians in the group to totally use that statement as a “buzz-word” meaning they block all other things out and think of it as a “Freudian slip” and focus only on the vulgarity and twist it to state that there was nothing important to listen to unless all foul language can be removed.
That’s really sick of how some Christians believe and I know precisely why they do it for it was part of my redirect for a while however they prove their own ignorance have they ever looked the word vulgarity or vulgar up? I doubt it they only think the word fuck means devil or sin or perversion and they totally size up the meaning of the monologue or even the character of the man speaking just based on one word this is so very sad and this is what Christians have done to crime to delinquents to any new believer in their church, mess up once? You are black sheep bad. A goat no means of forgiveness.
Forgiveness? Cheap in their book to me forgiveness is a process and yeah fuck it I will have defects in my character my life and my experience for ages.. I learn to love myself more for them and I will curse and cuss and use harsh words and if you cant see in my eyes that I love you and am not out to cause harm that I don’t live in a way that presents threats then? Fuck you.
Vulgarity is a matter of English that we use descriptive words to explain the action or attitude of the subject. So she shops in the market like a child. Like a child is a descriptive statement talking about the womans' actions of shopping if it was vulgar then there is incongruence that you cant make sense to see how it makes sense if we state: She shops in a store like the sun warms the face? There is no sense it this so it is vulgar using foul language we then know the fuck means something to do with sexual intercourse or being cheated. She shops in the store like a fuck? Well I suppose either she is dressed provocatively or she is out to cheat someone as she shops but 8 to 10 fuck is vulgar in this sense.
One term I hear is “what the fuck?” quite simply it’s a way to state that whatever I just said or heard doesn’t make sense. Or that I feel that what was said is out to cheat me or confuse me and this is appropriate. When it gets to be anti-Christian is the argument that terms like this make my ears bleed (another euphemism) that in the presence of sensitive people young people, gentle people we don’t try to offend them with certain euphuism for they are attempting to only listen to edifying spiritual or age-appropriate words topics and ideals and I get so damn annoyed having to talk down to their level yes by god I feel that if I cant speak the way I think plainly that its nearly dishonest. If I need to say what the fuck? I would say it in church or a funeral or to a child. If I was thinking that you cant take what I say with a bit of merit then yes I say fuck you. But? I find that my sisters and their families along with others charge a higher price for my “French” I don’t get invited to family gatherings or they simply quit answering the phone so? Like a piglet being socially reprimanded by being ignored I suppose for their sake I have to learn other forms of euphemism. So I say “Fluck it” or “Fluck a duck” but I am always curious for new colorful metaphors.
Okay so back to logging. Writing and brainstorming every start of my day is ideal to get me to know that I cant just say fine at the end. But it cants stop there.
Mid-day I go over that list circling all the things I did and I seek a reward of sorts. Then I rewrite that list including the things I haven’t yet attempted or the things I did only part way into new statements but I am careful to present it in a way… that it can be well received by me. No cheap emails even for me! Full sentences written in black heavy pen with good penmanship
My mid day rewards are silly, buying soda or coffee at a shop is cheap but.. it works that I am being served and I get to meet new people.
A less expensive one is to learn a new joke. Can be done online or a joke book I just keep reading until I start to laugh. Find how it may fit into my own life then I memorize it. I don’t have to do it word for word just takes a telling of 3 times and its becomes part of me. I love learning new jokes especially if it fits into my recovery as we are all asked to speak during meetings if I can put a joke into my talk it really livens up the whole meeting.
Next part of logging is the aims. I have aims that? I don’t know the full picture of. Its like I have a vision of a dream that is the goal the aim is the path I must take along the way. This path is riddled with challenges obstacles and as well lessons and resources that I pick up along the way. The log begins as a list of objects to achieve, but in essence am I not calculating the riddle? Am I not having to do work to overcome challenge am I not making use of the resources destiny has provided? Am I not always in a state of observation learning and re-sorting what I see like a student? All this is the footwork of my path in order to gain more clarity of the dream.
So? Its not a waste of time when the notes are all done I see trends. First off there are some items I keep putting off. Why? Perhaps it simply isn’t part of my path that it may be something another person is trying to get me to do but that for some reason my mind keeps thinking that it isn’t so meaningful so I keep putting it off. But I keep writing it down so? Yeah eventually I have to make a choice and I do usually in that choice of not doing it I have thought about it fully like the riddle and I see where some activities habits interests and jobs really have little to do with my own spiritual goals so? I scratch it out. But never without a bit of a Blog stating that I have chosen to let this one drop and how it has helped me to stick to my guns.
Then I look at the circled items is this more than one path? Usually I see the path from 3 different angles and it appears that I am traveling many different paths but no after years and years I see that it was always only one set of footprints. But the view of the path sometimes gets mixed up I call these views the color power. Green is the view from nature or spirit Silver is the view from eternity or heaven, White is the view from my mind what I can really touch today and must deal with on a daily basis there could be other angles I suppose, Pink I say are from other peoples points of view and Brown from animals or objects which are intelligent in spirit but as far as really motivating me to do it from my inner man I don’t deal with pink brown gray or blue. Just white mainly and I try to incorporate silver as much as I can if worship and scripture can be incorporated into my message it always helps to feel that I am walking in a blessing. From Green I see things as recovery and healing nearly all that I do has something to do with either my being more fit or my healing and helping another’s fitness but in all honesty I live by myself so? White is where I live most the time here and now.
So the aims is where I begin the Blog the actual thinking about why do I make this choice what is the evil of the truth the truth of the evil? How is it I can define what I will do in fitness tomorrow based on the inclinations of today and how best can I observe what I see today based on what I am inclined to have done in the past? All this is analyzing and yet? Its honesty. That was the point airing out the secret don’t let it just be an illusion if you can write it, if you can speak it and its received then its not a secret now. And it forces your mind. Okay it forces my mind to not be cheap with these thoughts.
Anything worth doing right is worth doing yourself in reverse then if you are willing to do it yourself you may as well settle for it to be done as right as you can. Anything worth having and holding is worth working for. Therefore as I present my aims to the paper. Then to my journal offline then copy it up to online Blogging that is really presenting my thoughts. And I have to say it. If you don’t like what you read – fuck you.
Oh I am fine we say.. I say you are sick for stating such a weasel of a statement and it is a fact that one slogan of recovery states FINE means Fucked up insecure Neurotic and emotional so? How to combat the sick of being fine? Write it down.
Zig Ziggler stated that if it was never written down and documented then it was never done. I don’t know if this is so but many businesses have this statement on their wall in plain view they want documentation. So? I tried it. Just a tiny 3 by 5 note pad spiral bound found them for only 25 cents fill one page up with a list of things I am planning to achieve in the next day. Or next shift or next few hours here is my list for today I wrote when I got up with my coffee:
Verify Julianna will come
Ask $10 from Julie – loan
Listen to tape book – clan of the cave bear
Clean up for Cindy visit – dishes, make bed straiten
Study new phone
Study about journalizing
Work my start page
Brainstorm new domain: MaryLucille.info
Study new Wiki
Arrange photo album offline then upload to online
Blog
10:40 Julie
11am Doc
1pm Cindy
Mail letter to Wulf
So brainstorm my list is what I did, 16 items I wrote with coffee about 7am its 8:55 and already I have 4 ½ done. Am I fine? Nope, I am remarkably terrific and I have documentation that I thought, planned, listed, made action and achieved my tiny aims. Is this the same as a goal? Well, it can be the little toe of a goal I suppose. That is a topic I need to consider deeper what I am here to do today is to discuss the importance and meaning of journalizing. What is it what isn’t it?
Well I cant say there is a wrong way to do it but there is a meaningful structure to what it really represents and the above example is primarily the essence of all that Journalism should become for anyone. That we do think and we must air what we think. We are only as sick as our secrets if its only a thought then there is no shred of evidence that it can be will be may be or is permitted to become an action but in the mere instance that a thought becomes verbiage becomes a written or spoken work it is no longer a secret and there was an action taken though it is the smallest of the strokes it may be only a dream and yet are not great cities built by what once was only a dream? And how great a forest fire is set ablaze by a tiny spark?
So to begin a log. A log is just the dust of the structure of an achievable goal and the one key point I personally feel is that the expression of our dream must never be so cheaply presented. This is a point I try to get my friends and family to understand when they send me email which in all effort stinks as if they sent me a bag of shit. They forward jokes which are not funny the only thing that has motive is that at the end of this joke it states if you send this off to 6 people in 6 seconds you get a wish if you don’t you will die in blood in your sleep and I get very angry.
My father loves redirect and loves slogans and ideas to make men think, one thing he told me way back in grammar school was that if a man cant speak in a way that others can receive what he means its as if he didn’t speak at all. This being so, why do I get angry if what you say stinks? I suppose I should ignore you but I just.. I wont. I cant ignore it for I hope to find out that you live that you are well and that you are speaking words of life to me and telling me things that matter. Who knows? Perhaps you feel that telling me that I am to die in a pool of blood in my sleep is all you matter for? Nope.
So? Speech in itself has to be presentable that every word be specific and geared to the correct meaning. I enjoy the word vulgarity for it defines why we don’t use euphemisms like Fuck or Damn unless it truly emphasizes the full meaning of what the message was meant to do. If words like Fuck upsets you don’t feel all alone it disturbs me as well but one euphemism that I use and love the most is Fuck you if used right really wakes up the person who isn’t quite taking what I say as seriously and perhaps the moral of the story has a bit to do with my cutting ties with you if you think what I have to say as cheap.
I don’t use such harsh words a lot. And yet I listen for others if they use it and mean it? And most really do they wont use FU cheaply for they know “them’s fighting words” that what they have to say reflects who they are for it is truly what they believe and if we cant accept them for what is presented – fuck you! I totally love this but? I find that for the 40% who accept this ideal there will be 6 Christians in the group to totally use that statement as a “buzz-word” meaning they block all other things out and think of it as a “Freudian slip” and focus only on the vulgarity and twist it to state that there was nothing important to listen to unless all foul language can be removed.
That’s really sick of how some Christians believe and I know precisely why they do it for it was part of my redirect for a while however they prove their own ignorance have they ever looked the word vulgarity or vulgar up? I doubt it they only think the word fuck means devil or sin or perversion and they totally size up the meaning of the monologue or even the character of the man speaking just based on one word this is so very sad and this is what Christians have done to crime to delinquents to any new believer in their church, mess up once? You are black sheep bad. A goat no means of forgiveness.
Forgiveness? Cheap in their book to me forgiveness is a process and yeah fuck it I will have defects in my character my life and my experience for ages.. I learn to love myself more for them and I will curse and cuss and use harsh words and if you cant see in my eyes that I love you and am not out to cause harm that I don’t live in a way that presents threats then? Fuck you.
Vulgarity is a matter of English that we use descriptive words to explain the action or attitude of the subject. So she shops in the market like a child. Like a child is a descriptive statement talking about the womans' actions of shopping if it was vulgar then there is incongruence that you cant make sense to see how it makes sense if we state: She shops in a store like the sun warms the face? There is no sense it this so it is vulgar using foul language we then know the fuck means something to do with sexual intercourse or being cheated. She shops in the store like a fuck? Well I suppose either she is dressed provocatively or she is out to cheat someone as she shops but 8 to 10 fuck is vulgar in this sense.
One term I hear is “what the fuck?” quite simply it’s a way to state that whatever I just said or heard doesn’t make sense. Or that I feel that what was said is out to cheat me or confuse me and this is appropriate. When it gets to be anti-Christian is the argument that terms like this make my ears bleed (another euphemism) that in the presence of sensitive people young people, gentle people we don’t try to offend them with certain euphuism for they are attempting to only listen to edifying spiritual or age-appropriate words topics and ideals and I get so damn annoyed having to talk down to their level yes by god I feel that if I cant speak the way I think plainly that its nearly dishonest. If I need to say what the fuck? I would say it in church or a funeral or to a child. If I was thinking that you cant take what I say with a bit of merit then yes I say fuck you. But? I find that my sisters and their families along with others charge a higher price for my “French” I don’t get invited to family gatherings or they simply quit answering the phone so? Like a piglet being socially reprimanded by being ignored I suppose for their sake I have to learn other forms of euphemism. So I say “Fluck it” or “Fluck a duck” but I am always curious for new colorful metaphors.
Okay so back to logging. Writing and brainstorming every start of my day is ideal to get me to know that I cant just say fine at the end. But it cants stop there.
Mid-day I go over that list circling all the things I did and I seek a reward of sorts. Then I rewrite that list including the things I haven’t yet attempted or the things I did only part way into new statements but I am careful to present it in a way… that it can be well received by me. No cheap emails even for me! Full sentences written in black heavy pen with good penmanship
My mid day rewards are silly, buying soda or coffee at a shop is cheap but.. it works that I am being served and I get to meet new people.
A less expensive one is to learn a new joke. Can be done online or a joke book I just keep reading until I start to laugh. Find how it may fit into my own life then I memorize it. I don’t have to do it word for word just takes a telling of 3 times and its becomes part of me. I love learning new jokes especially if it fits into my recovery as we are all asked to speak during meetings if I can put a joke into my talk it really livens up the whole meeting.
Next part of logging is the aims. I have aims that? I don’t know the full picture of. Its like I have a vision of a dream that is the goal the aim is the path I must take along the way. This path is riddled with challenges obstacles and as well lessons and resources that I pick up along the way. The log begins as a list of objects to achieve, but in essence am I not calculating the riddle? Am I not having to do work to overcome challenge am I not making use of the resources destiny has provided? Am I not always in a state of observation learning and re-sorting what I see like a student? All this is the footwork of my path in order to gain more clarity of the dream.
So? Its not a waste of time when the notes are all done I see trends. First off there are some items I keep putting off. Why? Perhaps it simply isn’t part of my path that it may be something another person is trying to get me to do but that for some reason my mind keeps thinking that it isn’t so meaningful so I keep putting it off. But I keep writing it down so? Yeah eventually I have to make a choice and I do usually in that choice of not doing it I have thought about it fully like the riddle and I see where some activities habits interests and jobs really have little to do with my own spiritual goals so? I scratch it out. But never without a bit of a Blog stating that I have chosen to let this one drop and how it has helped me to stick to my guns.
Then I look at the circled items is this more than one path? Usually I see the path from 3 different angles and it appears that I am traveling many different paths but no after years and years I see that it was always only one set of footprints. But the view of the path sometimes gets mixed up I call these views the color power. Green is the view from nature or spirit Silver is the view from eternity or heaven, White is the view from my mind what I can really touch today and must deal with on a daily basis there could be other angles I suppose, Pink I say are from other peoples points of view and Brown from animals or objects which are intelligent in spirit but as far as really motivating me to do it from my inner man I don’t deal with pink brown gray or blue. Just white mainly and I try to incorporate silver as much as I can if worship and scripture can be incorporated into my message it always helps to feel that I am walking in a blessing. From Green I see things as recovery and healing nearly all that I do has something to do with either my being more fit or my healing and helping another’s fitness but in all honesty I live by myself so? White is where I live most the time here and now.
So the aims is where I begin the Blog the actual thinking about why do I make this choice what is the evil of the truth the truth of the evil? How is it I can define what I will do in fitness tomorrow based on the inclinations of today and how best can I observe what I see today based on what I am inclined to have done in the past? All this is analyzing and yet? Its honesty. That was the point airing out the secret don’t let it just be an illusion if you can write it, if you can speak it and its received then its not a secret now. And it forces your mind. Okay it forces my mind to not be cheap with these thoughts.
Anything worth doing right is worth doing yourself in reverse then if you are willing to do it yourself you may as well settle for it to be done as right as you can. Anything worth having and holding is worth working for. Therefore as I present my aims to the paper. Then to my journal offline then copy it up to online Blogging that is really presenting my thoughts. And I have to say it. If you don’t like what you read – fuck you.
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